🌹 Intense Heart

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How to begin to explain it…

My heart feels deeply, with a force and intensity that words can’t fully describe...

I have Venus in Pisces, and they say that women with Venus in Pisces are romantic, emotional, profoundly sensitive, intuitive, and creative.

We also tend to hide our feelings for fear of rejection.

I must confess—I don’t know how to love halfway. It’s all or nothing.

However, now I observe and contemplate. I try my best to stay grounded, not to cross boundaries—because in the past, I’ve been hurt and betrayed.

Sometimes, like a stormy, unpredictable ocean, my heart stirs. The winds rage, and doubts, pain, and confusion rise up, not knowing how to feel, act, or express myself.

Moments when I feel too much and simultaneously freeze. Moments when I feel alone and misunderstood.

Those are the moments that call me inward—to speak to myself with honesty, to face what hurts, to cry even in solitude, to look my demons in the eye, to allow myself to be vulnerable.

Each tear carries an emotion, a reflection of little Melissa—a girl afraid of being alone, afraid of losing those she loves, a girl who believes that if she tries to “help” or “save” others, maybe they’ll stay.

That little girl isn’t bad—she’s just scared of all the "what ifs?" (control).

It’s not about punishing her, but about listening to her, mothering her, letting her know that everything is okay—because everything happens in the only way it can.

For a long time, I related to others from a place of fear and a desperate need to feel accepted, loved, and valued.

Since awakening into consciousness, I’ve realized that my unconscious was running the show—and it was my wounded inner child who decided what treatment I was willing to accept, just to feel “loved.”

But the truth was different: deep down, I always felt the affection was never truly sincere.

I used to keep so many emotions buried—even from myself—for fear of making others uncomfortable.

From a young age, I was taught to be “good.” Certain parts of me were labeled as “too much” or “inappropriate,” and so I learned to repress or eliminate them.

But that only deepened the pain and confusion.

Who am I?

Today, I’m giving myself permission to feel,

to cry,

to laugh,

to express my opinions with respect—but staying loyal to myself.

I’m listening to myself.

It’s been a process, step by step.

I’ve lived through difficult situations with friends, coworkers, bosses, family, and even potential romantic connections—all of which became part of my growth.

To each one of those people, I offer my thanks for the lessons.

To those who left, I said goodbye with love.

To those who stayed, I embrace you with love.

One day, a friend and mentor told me:

“Mel, you’re just too much... you feel too deeply, you ask too many questions, you desire too fully. Your presence is as tall as a tree, as wide as a mountain. Your energy fills every crack in the room. You take up too much space.”

That woman who is “too much”…

Too loud, too vibrant, too honest, too emotional, too smart, too intense, too difficult, too sensitive, too wild, too intimidating, too successful, too strong, too joyful, too needy—just TOO MUCH.

That’s who I am.

A woman who is too much.

A gypsy heart.

And only a few can handle my “muchness.”

Not because the way I feel, act, or love is wrong—

But because few people dare to be fully authentic.

Few dare to explore their own emotions completely.

It’s easier to walk away from someone who reflects the parts of ourselves we refuse to feel or acknowledge.

After all… what’s hidden is scary.

I remember something, a dear friend once told me.

He said he was afraid of a woman like me,

because I wanted “everything or nothing.”

And yes—it’s true.

I want it all.

I want love with depth and fire.

And if that’s too much… then I’m not for everyone.

I recognize myself now.

I don’t regret feeling too much.

I don’t know what the future holds, or what my soul has agreed to live—

But one thing is clear: wherever I go, my presence will make noise.

And that’s perfect.

I won’t dilute my essence just to make others comfortable.

Let the world get ready—because here I come.

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🌹 Thank you for reading me, for feeling with me, and for honoring your own light and shadow.

Love,

Melissa – Seladriel