"It Wasn’t a Lack of Communication — It Was a Lack of Reciprocity"

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Attending a gathering with Luis, an awakened Divine Masculine, was revealing.

Listening to his testimony—his dark night of the soul, his mental blocks,

his awakening and surrender—was meaningful.

But there was a key moment:

when I chose to emphasize the importance of communication

between the Divine Feminine and her masculine counterpart,

he interrupted me to say that the Divine Feminine

should find ways to start a conversation with her Masculine,

even if he acted distant.

I looked at him (even if it was through a screen)

and replied calmly, but with the full truth of my wound:

“Believe me, I tried everything...

I wrote to him with tears running down my cheeks,

I shouted truths,

spoke words full of love, rage, and pain.

I also kept silent, thinking that was how I respected his space.

Every word I shared carried hope, energy, time

—I poured my heart into it.

But I was left alone and empty...

My words echoed into a void.

Because if the Masculine doesn’t reply, doesn’t open up,

doesn’t share his life, his dreams, his wounds, his fears…

there is no way to build anything.

He never gave me the chance.”

This is the difference between Luis’s story with Ericka and mine with Daman

Luis had communication, even if it was scarce.

Despite his fears and rational mind, he made space in his life for Ericka.

I had silence.

Luis resisted at first,

but Ericka would talk to him, explain things, build bridges

He Listened to her.

In my case, I sent signals, opened channels, asked, proposed…

and what I found on the other side was a wall.

One-word replies, Endless silences.

Zero curiosity about me… indifference bordering on cruelty.

And when I asked him for reciprocity in communication,

all I got was a phrase that still stings like a dagger:

“I have nothing to ask you.”

It wasn’t because I lacked communication.

It wasn’t that I didn’t know how to speak, express myself, or love.

It wasn’t a failed strategy or poor emotional regulation.

It was because he didn’t want to be there—

and that’s a truth that hurts… but also sets you free.

Because love isn’t just measured,

by how much you do to make it work.

It’s also measured by

how much the other person is

willing to respond, participate, and build.

Today, I understand this without guilt, without shame.

Because it wasn’t, my flaw that made him stay silent.

It was his fear, his running, his emotional immaturity…

that kept him from speaking.

And I, who no longer beg to walls,

today I kneel only before my own truth

Now, my loyalty is with my emotions,

my story,

my dignity.

To all the Divine Feminines who feel deeply,

who — even against reason and logic —

bravely chose to take responsibility for their wounds and heal.

To those who, even in the midst of pain,

decided to keep loving — first the Masculine… and then themselves.

Because one day, they understood the great truth:

“this journey was never about him, but always for you.”

He came to awaken, you came to ignite.

Now embrace yourself, fire warrior —

the one who burned, the one who screamed, the one who fell…

but also the one who stood back up.

With this post, I celebrate you, I celebrate myself,

and I give voice to the sacred pain

that so many of us walk through on the twin flame path.

— Seladriel

I honor all the times I cried in solitude. The times when, overwhelmed by emotions, I fell to my knees and whispered:"Why?","What did I do wrong?","Do I deserve his silence as punishment?" With my hands clenching my chest and tears falling like shattered prayers, the only answer was the heartbeat…of a wounded heart, but one still alive. A heart that does not regret having felt, nor is ashamed of having cried. Because every tear was truth, and every wound… was love.

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Love

     Melissa – Seladriel